I was always scared of aging even when I was young. Always buying and using skin cream since I was in my twenties and now that I’m in my thirties I still use it. Although, I shouldn’t be that terrified of it I am and it’s hard not to. I think it’s more the thought of growing old so fast. I just can’t believe that time is passing me by so fast. Maybe that’s the reason for “my last push”. I don’t care who or what thinks of who I am what I am. I’m just going to DO IT. I’m going to just make it happen. I am my last hope. Not to mention I know I have an amazing family who will love me no matter what.
There is nothing that age and time can stop me from me being me. If I want to dress a certain way I will. There is no one that will tell me that I’m too old to do that or this of course within reason but you know what I mean. That is my thought for today! I will not be afraid. I will not be scared to move forward and get my life together finally. I will become who God wanted me to be. I will take it. I will not be afraid for God has created me in HIS own image and I will not falter because HE is beside me.
I really need to learn how to manage my time better. Things that I want to do and things that I need to do. I want to blog but I NEED to feed the baby!! HAHAHA No but seriously….now I understand why some people are called super moms because they seem to have the ability to handle a lot of things and do everything at the same time. I need my alone time to think and ponder and sort my thoughts even though they may never get sorted but….
Ok seriously….want to do. I’ll organize my thoughts now…I want to craft and read…just don’t have any time…maybe I could just do it in blocks of 30 min a day. 30 min timer…maybe that’ll help. 30 min crochet/read/blog/breath/relax/tv and geeze seems like i’m going to run out of 30 mins….there is seriously not enough time in a day and I don’t even have time to proofread what I’m writing…I’m trying to cram everything in my head out before baby starts to cry or husband starts calling me.
I need to focus more and not chat as much. I feel like I’m chatting so much my life is getting away with me. Focus. Breath. Focus. Let’s get this together and let me see if it works I’ll get back to you on that but life is so hectic right now. I can’t imagine when I lose baby nap times how am I going to finish any work. I think that was 30 min already. I’ll see you tomorrow hopefully!
I never know why I do the things I do…I do them just because “I feel” like it’ll be fun but today I get the feeling that my life will change. I am really blessed to know so many good Christ centered women. I woke up today and she asked me these questions….and at first I laughed. Why is she taking this so seriously? Why would she ask me these questions? I asked her “what made you ask me these questions?”….and then I pondered about it and I just had a feeling that God was asking me these questions through her….and she answered…”it helps keep me grounded and focused on what God has planned for me and my life and ultimately obey God’s plan for me.” That’s my problem I never think…long and hard enough. I just think about the now and never the future. I just want the results but never following through.
1. What is your “why” for going into business with Jamberry? (This is what will help you persevere when you want to give up.)
The reason why I started was because it was a good deal and I just love Jamberry…then it became wanting to meet all the goals they set for me because for some reason it made me happy and I knew that if others met it then I can too. Normally I find goals that I set for myself are too impossible to meet even though they’re not. So the why is continuously changing…at times I want it so that I can make ends meet. Then at others I just find the comrade in it so appealing. Just knowing that other women are out there and struggling just as much as I am.
2. What is your goal with Jamberry?
My goal…right now I just want the Jamberry necklace, it’s the necklace of a Team manager. That’s all I want. I just want enough income so that I can support my family. I want to be able to buy a house eventually….and maybe have another kid but right now it’s not possible if I don’t work. I want to make more friends. I love meeting new people. I want women to know that even if they have a crappy day they can still feel beautiful when wearing their jams….because that’s how I feel. Having kids, being pregnant it’s harsh on a woman’s body. I don’t think I’ll ever be the same….I’m embracing it but there are just some days I just don’t feel good and those days Jams make me feel beautiful.
3. How can this business be used to glorify God?
Maybe just maybe if I can meet other women and love and support them in my own way. I know I’m never good with words but I try to love as much as I can. Maybe just maybe I can do this without quitting.
Maybe I can use this to help other women feel beautiful too.
I have no idea how, when or why but I know He has a reason for everything.
I wish I had known. I wish I had listened to my parents. Now I know why they never let me have one. The heartache of losing a pet is just becoming more real everyday. I’ve had our dogs now for 10 years. It’s getting closer…their average lifespan is only 12 years. I mean I’m just holding my breath and waiting for that day where they will pass. I’m just holding them more or as much as I can with a newborn. They’re getting more depressed and lonely because I haven’t had the time to spend with them like I used to. My baby girl dog is always limping now having gone through surgery (didn’t help) and ended up injuring it again. And now the boy dog is experiencing pancreatitis which is requiring a special diet which costs more money. *sigh* Dog insurance won’t even cover how much they could end up using. What if they get cancer…how am I going to deal with this. I’m not ready. I wanted to clone them but it’s not even legal yet or not even affordable….sometimes I wish I never got them but they’ve taught me so much. They taught me to love, care and patience. I’m going to miss them so much.
How do I feel? I love it…it’s been a lot of fun. I think the most fun is that I get to meet a lot of wonderful women(moms) while getting to do something fun like nails. I didn’t think I could love doing something like this but I’ve met some unbelievable people! They’re so sweet and strong and supportive! Love it! I’m don’t know where I’ll go or what I’ll be doing but we’ll see…I just won’t stop…just keep going…for fun….this is what I follow now…i’ve quit too many things…even if my blog sux I’ll keep on writing and posting…taking pictures and doing jams.
Trying to crochet in the spring time is like wearing a winter sweater during the summer! It’s just pure MADNESS I tell yah! I would love to crochet it’s just that it gets so hot when you’re underneath all that yarn! Then again it is the perfect time to start stocking up all your WINTER gifts because you’re the CRAZY YARN LADY. Okay, people don’t literally call me that but I DO feel like I am the crazy crochet/cat lady but minus the cats? I don’t have cats, I have dogs, does that still count? So for this spring some projects that I am THINKING about taking on or making. I’ll let you know as the season progresses or you can keep tabs on me if you’d like! Here are some cute ideas! If you have any you’d like to share that’d be awesome!
If you’d like to see what it’s all about please go by and check out my guest post over at Snarkfest Blog. Make sure to give her some love for letting me guest post! =) She has been such an amazing woman and so supportive! She might make you laugh or cry or both at the same time! She’s just awesome! You might be surprised and fall in love with her too!